Thank you cat. I appreciate the thoughtful words, so much.
It is just so hard for me to take though. 4 years med school. 9 years of unbelievably hard training, no money-- to get to the point where we (my wife, my family) could finally live our lives together.
within a month of the end of that process it seems as though it is all gone... and has only gotten worse as the months have gone on... now with the light shed on the possible fact that my wife is seriously involved with another man.
I am trying really hard to get a life... but it is hard after all of that to be where I am now. I just do not understand it. maybe some day I will.
I so much appreciate all the support you all have given me. It is just so many things--all of the things-- that I worked towards and dreamed about are now gone.
So perhaps this will be a good thing in the end as you say. Very hard to believe that right now. Very hard.
In two hours though (pulling up boot straps). She and the boys will be here. I will put a smile on my face, be enthusiastic, and try to just BE in the present with them, love them, and focus on being the best father that I can be for them.
right now I need to watch one of those stories of somebody who was born blind without arms or legs but saved the world and started a food drive for the homeless people in their town before they attended harvard and joined the Peace Corps... something like that. one of those kick you in the ass perspective stories.
at least I don't live in Haiti.. hows that?
and for the record, my wife always let me do pretty much whatever I wanted... which may have contributed to the current problem.
