Continue to focus on yourself, go as dark as you can, keep the conversations short like you did this morning. Live YOUR life and enjoy the time you have with this kids. Don't worry about how she feels, what she is thinking, what she is doing, if she will come back, etc. The decision to come back is up to her and nothing anyone else can control. Just be the best person you can be for YOU and not anyone else. If she likes that person then good if not there are other people that will/do.
I am doing these things, and getting stronger everyday. Got our best friends coming over tonight to do steaks on the grill (I know its January) and margarita's, will be kids and all like old times minus my wife. They are also mourning her absense and do not understand, it is like she is divorcing them also. So I feel like I am getting my life started back up again and doing normal things. No problem there.
I only ponder the acceptance/approval thing b/c I realized it very early in the sitch and made changes immediately. I guess she is still accustomed to seeking my approval, this is preplexing to me b/c if it were truly the case she would not be doing all the other things, A's, ONS, bad parent etc. It is very much like the rebelious (sp) teenager trying to get attention. I know I should not psychoanalyze what's in her head as others and you have said, it just makes me wonder how a 42 year old woman can revert back to a adolescent????
Appreciate the offer, it is something I am working on this weekend. I am just pulling off files to save and actually one of my neighbors has the same employer as you and is loading new OS. Let me know if you want to grab a coffee or drink this weekend? Hope things go well for you tonight, I know you miss your kids, enjoy!!
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
