Moving Foward

[Kemper]

Well I met with my C this morning and that went well. I switch between anger for what is happening and why, feeling sorry for my W, and fear of what is about to come, esp. for my boys. I wouldn't say that I have bad days, more like a bad hour here or there. I have been doing really well of "snapping" myself out of bad moments and focusing my mind on better things.

After C I met with the L for a few hours. That was a pretty low point, like most in the world these days things are tight. My W hasn't worked since before we got married. This is going to play into her favor for custody based on the ages of my sons. As much as I don't want to pay alimony it might end up making the most financial sense since I can write it off on my taxes. The amount of child support is scary and is probably more than what we currently spend on the boys per month but it is what it is.

I got home and finished gathering additional paperwork for the L. Hopefully, she'll have the move out agreement ready and over to W's L early next week.

It is difficult living in the same house as your W knowing in a few short weeks she will be gone. I know emotionally she has been gone for some time and it isn't so much that I want her here as I want the boys here. I will miss the boys but it will remove a ton of tension from the house.

I need to ask her in the next couple of days when we are going to sit down with the boys and tell them what is about to happen. This is a conversation I am not looking foward to. I will be there for my boys and comfort them as much as I can.

Well off to clean up the house before the boys get home.