Sorry to hear you are starting to freak out. I know how you feel. I met with the L today and financially speaking with two young kids it isn't the greatest outcome.
I agree with you about it being a major mistake. I hope my W will someday realize it as well. However, today her drug (A) is to strong to see that.
Stay strong and post when you need support.
M 33 | W 34 | Kids: S4, S3 M: 5/28/05 Bomb: 8/22/09 EA: 8/1/09 | PA 12/26/09 W L: 10/21/09 M L: 11/16/09 | 12/09 to file SA W & Boys Move Out: 3/14/10