feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

Ok let me kill all of my good thoughts right now and update last night.

His plane was delayed an hour he was sitting on a hot plane and texting me - I didn't respond to them - now he wants to talk to me? I picked him up at 9:30 and he got into the car and didn't even say hello (been gone for 8 days) He was bitching about how I almost got a ticket waiting in the wrong line blah blah blah.

I put my music up and was singing on the drive home. We didn't really talk - other than him saying "stay in this lane" blah blah

We got home and he came in and he didn't hug the kids just said "I'm mad at you guys - I text you and no one text me back" - how immature is that? maybe because your kids don't respect you very much right now and maybe because they are sad! what a selfish pr*ck - his feelings always come first.

I went to bed first he followed after me and he said, "i hate my bed" (weve been meaning to get a new one) but he says, "i love the hotel beds but I'm glad to be in my own."

This morning he cleans the kitchen up. I get myself some coffee say thanks for cleaning up. He brings up the paycheck thing (hours werent showing) but he worked overtime. He starts to get real nasty with me. I say, "why are you screaming at me" - he wasn't but he was angry and raising his voice. I go to make my kids lunch and avoid him.

He says, "ok I'm gonna go now" (I'm thinking he's gonna leave without giving me his morning kiss) he comes over and goes to hug me and kisses me on the lips.

Can I get a holler?

Luv is trying so hard not to hate!