Man, I'm telling you, I think I have figured things out and then something else happens.....This is her weekend with the boys...They are both going to a church retreat for the weekend so she is pretty much free for the weekend....
She is planning on hanging out with her sister tonight....Her sister has recently had her heart broken by the guy she was seeing, so they are going to hang out and watch movies and drink...I'm glad she is taking time with her sister because they have not alwyas been that close....
Here's the kicker though....She is interested in us doing something Sat night.....I think I know where this is coming from....She is lonely since things fell through with OM and she is not close enough to the guy she had the date with to have him at her beck and call, so here I am.....Plus, I really believe that she is missing not having sex and is not ready for that with the guy she just stared dating, so she is thinking that we might could just jump in bed for old times sake....I may be overthinking things way too much, but it sure seems this way to me....
As I said, I am at a point now that I really don't see things working out for us and not sure that I want them to....There have not been enough changes in either one of us....That being said, sex between us was always great....I'm having a hard time thinking that if it actually did come to that why not just take her up on it....
Is it possible for us to do that with no feelings or will it just open up a whole can of worms....I sit here and say that I could do it and that it won't bother me, but how will I feel about her afterwards....Not sure what to make of all this...Actually, I think I do know the answers, but it still does not stop me from thinking WTH, just go for it and worry about it later...
Send the 2x4's this way...Know they are deserved.....
