I'm giving up, told W I'll sign at the end of FEB

[TooLateForMe]

This is my second M to my W and I'm not going to do it again should there be a reconciliation. The M itself isn't the focus. My IC pointed out that much of my "connected feelings" to her may come from the codependency. She's always been there for me and it's hard to separate her from that "parental role."

I think it goes deeper. Psychologists suggest that deep, long-term love comes from engram coding. A person literally becomes part of our brain and removing them from our lives is painful. It's like quitting smoking after years of doing it. The nicotine addiction is easier to overcome than the habits and associations that go with the activity.