It seems like you have difficulties making decisions for yourself.
-You want the church to tell you whether you can have another relationship. -You wear what your STBXW wants you to wear. -You won't take control of your own finances, because you think your STBXW won't like it. -You let your STBXW determine how you spend your time with YOUR daughters.
Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.