It's weird...Kemper I read in one of your posts you said you weren't sure you'd take her back. It's funny something I clinged to sooooo dearly I find I no longer am as much. I guess being separate did that to me. Not to mention I am happy when not dealing with my H. That tells me a lot. I feel like some weights are off my shoulders not having to revolve, it was exhausting. He is extremely depressed and battling drinking again. So I find myself wondering would I even want him back? As he is now? No. Ready to put myself and son first. It's hard to believe I am saying these things. THe first time this happened (2 years ago) I couldn't even get off the floor, literally. Now look, here I am smiling ...a lot, having fun, am I scared of things...sure but overall considering the circumstances I feel pretty good.
