You are saying you did all the work on you but you have not done any work on you.
It is easy to say you did *something* and convince yourself of that when in reality you did nothing.
You say you are not stuck in fear, right? If that is the case then why can't you set a boundary? Why can't you create a goal that does not involve your W?
There is not a thing wrong with recognizing the church as your spiritual authority. Using the church to avoid working on you in the name of answering to a higher authority is a problem. If you could attack your own issues with the same vigor you are using to explore the validity of your M (when you were not even married in a Catholic Church and you said you were fine with that and did not care) things would be better for you.
