loving distance

[courageous wife]

Unfortunately, no sleep last night! The stops signs were not working! Brain would not shut off!!! A lot of thoughts going in the "is he really worth all of this?"

Then, on the other side, he has still not talked with his oldest son and has not called the kids at all this week (since Sunday). Am wanting to think that this isn't a bad thing. I think once he has that talk, then that means he really is done with our M.

I haven't been keeping a journal but think I will start. My Dr. said she kept one her whole life and when her teenage son was going thru things and blaming her for her H walking out on them, she had him read it! She said that he changed after that!

I am thinking that H and I need to talk about finances, his medical bills are coming in and I feel he is the one that needs to call and set up payment schedules. Also, it is bothering me that he just comes and goes on the weekend. I think we need to set up and every other weekend he visits the kids ALL weekend. I can stay somewhere else if he doesn't have his own place to take them to as I'll be damned if I will allow them to go to OW's place.

I am thinking that I will wait until he calls and then bring up these concerns up? I need to get my thoughts on paper as I seem to not be able to talk to him with out some kind of cheat sheet nowadays!!!

Any thoughts or suggestions would be welcome!!!