Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

I had to take a break of a few days. Doing more D paperwork... darn home inventory is a pain. Luckily I haven't really heard from WAH except an email wanting to see the kids all day Monday since it's a holiday. Modifying the schedule again. He won't see them Saturday because of his classes. It actually works out for me because I need to train on Monday for my volunteer position @ hospital and was going to be gone for several hours.

I appreciate you all rushing to support me. I'm still feeling low, but I needed a break from it all. My sitch just got to be too much. Instead, I buried myself in my classes that started this week and all the assignments. The distraction really helped. My sitch feels so absurd. Now I really do feel it's WAH that is just nuts. Guess I'm reaching acceptance.

One thing that really got me thinking was a comment my friend made about WAH... she doesn't understand how he could have a relationship with anyone with the way he's behaving now ie cruelty, pettiness, anger, odd behavior. Yeah, I know I don't like the person he is now, so who would?? Not that I or she think the A is over, just that OW isn't getting the better version of him probably.

I'll be back on later to catch up on everyone...