Don't know where to post this.

[loveherstill]

I need to correct my path gucci. I did send that. She said in her journal that she wanted me because I was there for her physical needs (sickness, operations, etc.), was a good father, and was always a good provider. She said that I took care of her much like you would a child.

She said she wants OM because he gives her a shoulder to cry on, tells her she is smart and pretty, and does not judge her when she is not so perfect.

That letter was my attempt to fill the EN's that the OM was filling.

She called me last night to wish me good night. We laughed and joked for about 20 minutes about different things. She said she enjoyed the call.

On a downside she said she is going to see OM tonight. She says that she may cancel and want to see me instead (I am not holding my breath). She said she went to see him last weekend because we were fighting and she is going tonight because she planned it last weekend. While she said this I acted as if it made no difference to me. I acted as if her decisions affected my life in no way whatsoever. Think she was trying to test me to see if I would get angry so she could justify her trip to see him.

She still wants to go out on Saturday and see me Sunday as well since I missed last night.

I need a course correction gucci. I want to win this fight, but really do not know how. I am trying to 180 what I was doing before the bomb. This letter was an attempt as I was controlling and angry before and never treated her as I should have.

I also let her know that I would not be able to help her with more than one third of her traffic ticket cost and she would have to pick up the rest of the tab. This should wipe out her savings account.