Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

The corner is getting ready to get turned.

I am finding my way into a much better place, emotionally, and relationship wise.

What I mean is, the post from RobX to OB, really made me do alot of soul searching, and introspection. What I have found is, I have been feeling sorry for a person who doesn't need to be felt sorry for: ME.

What I should have been doing is, empowering myself, controlling myself, healing myself.

I finally get it.

I still hurt. I still have angst. I still struggle with unanswered questions, I still have doubt, and worry, but I now know that I CONTROL that.

A lightbulb finally lit up in the dim, deep, segregrated corner of my mind, and I finally understand that I control ALL of this.

My W is not the key to my happiness, I AM. I can CHOOSE to be happy, or I can sit here in my own PI$$ and $HIT feeling sorry for myself. I've CHOSEN to be happy.

For those on these boards that have guided me, and steered me in the right direction-my sincere thanks. I wasn't always receptive to your methods, and backtracked ALOT, but I want you to know, without your love and support, this Soldier wouldn't have reached this point in his life.

I know I still have much work to do, but I now know what tools to use to do the work. I also finally know what work needs to be done. I am like a rough draft, constantly fine tuning, and tweaking my story until a masterpiece is written. Each chapter bringing me closer and closer to the ending.

A HAPPY ending.