I'm feeling better day by day. Still a little melancholy in the mornings... that's my worst time of day. But I was just thinking I really need to stop focusing on him... really it is hard not to but it is such a waste of my time. And he certainly isn't thinking of us. So why am I wasting my time -
He was emotionally abusive and I think that has made it much harder to move on to. When you're with someone who puts you down and shakes your self-esteem you start thinking maybe their point of view is valid. You start to doubt your worth as a person. And the rest of the world can tell you that your smart and pretty and a great person etc but the fact that the person that you loved the most didn't see it that way is what you remember the most. My confidence and how I feel about myself has taken a battering and it's hard to get that confidence back. Especially when someone goes as far as to leave you - that just totally reinforces this sense of you being worthless. And that is hard to come to terms with.
