Dude that church argument is so weak. All you're doing is using the church as an excuse of whether or not you should remain a stander. IT DOESN"T MATTER.
If you are only doing it because the church tells you so, you will fail. You will fail because your heart isn't in it. You have to do what you believe. If you make up your mind to do it because it's church doctrine, then do it positively. Right now you sound like a child - "oh I have to stay in it because the church says so."
That's why you're failing. If you're going to decide on something, do it because you want to. Not because you HAVE to. You haven't even gotten to that part.
Yes it sucks with work and all, but you know what? Take a look at the rest of the other posters. All of our sitches suck. It's just a fact of life. Make the best use of the tools that God gave you because right now you're changing into a resentful person with a "woe is me" attitude.
Like I said before, we all get in this funk. The key is to kick yourself in the ass. Note I said kick YOURSELF in the ass and get started living.
Everyone here is trying to do it for you. YOU are the one who needs to get it started. Personally, I think you need a healthy routine. Like taking an ongoing class or ongoing counselling or something. Right now, you going to the occassional game or dinner are just band-aids and ways of escaping.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
