If you were starving (and I don't mean starving because you skipped lunch, I mean starving like you have not eaten for a week) and somebody said "hey Kevin, there is a dude on the corner passing out free food" what would you say?
(A) Yes, thank you for letting me know, I saw him handing out the free food but I walked right by him (even though I am so hungry I would eat dirt at this point) but thanks for letting me know.
(B) FREE FOOD!!! I am starving... how do I find this man and what is the fastest way to get there?
It is both concerning and disturbing you openly admit how much you struggle but you keep walking right by all the things that can make you "struggle free".
I honestly don't know why I keep doing this to myself. I used to feel really sad for you. Mostly because you reminded me OF ME. And I know I annoyed the hell out of people because I was going to do things "my way" and to hell with it all. In the meantime, while doing things "my way" I still complained how awful it was (like you). When I finally got with the program I realized that maybe everybody else wasn't all that far off base and I was the problem. Then my life got better bit by bit.
I want to understand (really more than anything) why you don't want to feel better? I think my life would be complete if I could get it. For real.
