I'm feeling better today. Man those last couple days really did a number on me. I will see H again tonight, and I just plan on a simple "Hi, how are you". When I keep it simple like that he seems to be a little happier around me.

I think one of my biggest obstacles right now, is the snooping. I don't know why I feel it is so important for me to find out for sure if there is OW or not. I know that it is out of my control if there is, but there is that nagging feeling that I have to know for sure. But if I did, I don't think it would change my mind about trying to save the M.

Together 16 years
Married 12 years
Me 36
H 34
D9 & S6
Separated 12/3/09
Confirmed A 1/25/10
Exposed A 1/26/10
H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10