I'm glad you checked in. Even though I've had a difficult week, I've been wondering about you. You must feel like we've given you a lumber yard of 2x4's! I understand that only you really know what is going on in your sitch, and I hope you understand that those 2x4's are there to support you.
I understand about your fear of the "talk". I was so full of dread leading up to it. I felt like I had to throw up the entire time. It's the worst thing I've ever had to do. I don't know what the others will say, but I think if you are not ready for it, then it's ok to wait until you feel better prepared. Yes, your husband should do the talking, but I know you will be there.
Reading you post, I just want to give you a hug! I know this must be the worst time of your life, and your worst birthday ever. You share a family business with your H? That must make detaching from him even harder. wow.
I agree with CityGirl, you're not supposed to ignore the affair. I don't know how it would be possible anyway.
As far as the other things your H has told you. I don't think it matters what he is saying. He'll change his mind the next day, or remember that he said something else, or he is lying about it now. It took me months to stop worrying about all the things my W said (and I still do sometimes!). After sometime, I realized that it just didn't matter what she said, because it seldom had anything to do with reality. I know that sounds harsh, and it's been hard for me to form this doubt about a person that I've so trusted for so many years. But then I've read the same thing over and over in other threads. It's like my W is an alien. Don't get me wrong, I still worry about/care about her.
I don't know if any of this does you any good, but hang in there.
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