It's complicated but it's mine #28

[kat727]

I am back to work. I am not 100% but my boss was working on out of town appointments and I thought at least I won't give this to anyone and I can be productive.

I am reading a new book for book club and yep, it deals with adultry. It is historical fiction and it takes place back at the turn of the century. Huge scandal then, even written up in the papers since it involved a famous person. Before all of this happened, I wouldn't have been thrilled about the adultry but knew it was fairly common. Now it feels like a personal affront even though I know it isn't. I realize all of this pain and in the end I know there is a tragedy. I have to ask if that is karma showing her hand and then I am a bit horrified that I would even think that.

I suppose each day is just getting one step further away from the hurt and eventually it will feel as if it was just a pesky bug bite. Or so I hope.

Maybe it is good to be reading this and facing it. Looking at the other side and the hunt for justification to make it all "right" in their minds. Maybe this is just me babbling from my cold.

kat