What to do, what to do?

[LuLu]

Last night was fun. Went to a comedy show with the Separated/Divorce meetup group. I don't know, every time (I've only been twice, lol) I meet up with this group there's always a part of me that gets down about it. I always feel like the youngest one there (and I'm not that young!) and I don't know, it's just all depressing really. Which kind of defeats the purpose sometimes of GAL'ing.

I'm going to have to find some different groups to join. On the positive note, it is a bit ego-boosting. Talk about attention! Yeah, okay, so most of the guys are pretty desperate but hey, it's better than the attention that I've been getting at home -which is NONE!

When I got home, H woke up and put on his shoes to head back to his place. I thanked him for staying with the kids. He actually asked me if I had a good time. This is new. I need to write it down so I can see the small changes and appreciate them. I wished he would have stayed the night but I'm not expecting miracles.

H won't be coming to see the kids today so it gives me time to do some more recharging. I feel good mentally and need to keep it going. Things I thought about last night:

I need to "live consciously" - pay attention to what I'm doing, why I'm doing it, and where it really gets me.

I also realize that with my H I think it's just important for him to be "heard". It's a 180 for me to sit back and just listen and validate. If he asks for my opinion, then I give it to him, but not otherwise. If he's made a decision, I tell him it sounds good (if it does). Listen and validate. Listen and validate. I remember hearing somewhere that if you hear something for 60'something times you will commit it to memory. I'm hoping it doesn't take me that long to remember this one.