DW,
Last night I started to have doubts about my actions during the MC yesterday, but I know that she would have continued to cake eat, I had made good progress with her as far as being friendly and nice. Yesterday, definitely made her mad but not as mad as I have seen her get in the past over trivial stuff. I am going to be cordial and nice but not overly. This is the tough part, I actually said in the session that it was over and I took off my wedding band and handed it to her. You would think that she would be happy, and maybe she is but she is really free now to do whatever she wants. I think I will get pay back during the sep agreement negotiations. I just want to get that over.

I will see her tonight when I drop my son off with her to eat dinner with her. I will get out of the car when I drop him off but I think she will not walk him up to the door when she drops him back off at home. I am not going to initiate any contact which I was already doing so no problem there. I think my challenge will be not to be too nice, just cordial at this point. I will have to wait for her to literally initiate any conversation beyond hello and goodbye.

Honestly, I did not say anything that wasn't true and if you read what I wrote that was pretty much what I said. I would even say that I sugar coated the whole thing. I let her know that I disapprove and that I am a MAN. I think that I had the cart before the horse on the Friend thing. My issue now will be not to snoop about any other men she is seeing, dating or otherwise involved with. Taking day by day again but going to focus on kids, house, job, me.


Formerly "missherlove"

Me49 XW49
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison