Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

In my sitch, and for me in particular, I suffer from this anxiety/co-dependance issue.

I feel out of control some days. I feel anxious, and because of my co-dependancy issue, I get myself worked up because of my EXPECTATIONS of my W. Today has been one of those days.

I am Expecting her to change, to apologize, to want to do the work. And when it doesn't happen, I get emotional. I am really working hard on this, and I want it to STOP.

The feeling of dread that comes over me when I think of why she hasn't contacted me about the R/M, drives me nuts some days.

I just want to scream "Why won't you call me and tell me you are sorry, and that you want to work through this?"

These feelings are slowly diminishing, but they rear their ugly head some days.

I don't like feeling that way, and am really working hard to deal with those feelings.

I am looking forward to re-deploying in around 2 months. We are extremely busy, and that helps me.

Gotta DETACH Soldier. Detach from her, and her grip on me. SHE doesn't control me, I don't control her.

Detach. Detach. Detach.

NOW DO IT!!!!