Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

I had to TM wife to ask if she was going to be able to call; she said yes, so I kept the kids up an extra 1/2 hr. W says she called as soon as she got into hotel room, I believe her. Total time on the phone with me and two daughters was about 5 minutes. Before I pat myself on the back, I didn't even get a chance to cut off the phone call before she did. Almost immediately she told me she had a splitting headache, it had been a long day, and she just wanted some time without people around and then go to sleep. And before I could get in a word, she said in a very friendly tone, I'm sorry, we can talk more tomorrow I'm just too tired tonight. That was going to be my excuse! Oh well, I quickly interjected, nothing to be sorry for, if there is anyone who just wants quiet and then sleep its me! She chuckled at that and said yes I can see why that would be. Then the awkward pregnant pause, from both sides, as I suspected on how to end a conversation in this new state of affairs, and we both just said ok, bye, talk to you tomorrow.

Now its my time. Finally. I'm eating a HUGE slice of my pie, the quiet is so nice right now, words can't describe it. I'm so cold after working in a building without heat today that I might just take a long hot shower or bath. I don't think I'm going to think about much tonight, I think I need to give my brain and emotions a break. Just going to look to build up personal self esteem and relax and sleep.

Thanks for your help today to all.