A most interesting and frustrating conversation if there ever was one. She seems extremely complacent and OK with the status quo. This discussion turned into one similar to the ones we've had before. I asked her if she wanted a D, she said that I was supposed to do it. I told her I didn't want one and wanted her to do it. I asked her whether she enjoyed the current situation and she said she was fine with it. She even went so far as to say that she was willing to sit like this until the next husband came along. She reiterated a lot of the things she perceived as flaws in me, and told me that she wanted the marriage to work but me to change. She once again stated that she was a good wife, despite the fact that she cheated on me. When I reminded her of some of her flaws, she immediately asked me why I didn't file, and I told her, for the same reason that I hadn't. Of course, she told me how she believed that I never loved her, and that the counselor that we both see (who I no longer see since I moved) told her that my attempts at reconciliation are an attempt to avoid rejection. Ironically enough, it's sort of the opposite, I want to resolve a situation because there are other people who are expressing interest in me who I cannot touch at this time. Long story short, it was a rehash of everything wrong I did with no recognition of any personal responsibility. It's frustrating that she will not come out of that and recognize that she engaged in certain behaviors that made her a less than stellar wife. I think that her own unwillingness to accept her role in this is the biggest obstacle to overcoming things. She knows she [censored] up, but can't face dealing with it, so it's still my fault. I gave her till Friday to make a decision. Ironic that I'm sitting here looking at things in the house to clean if I invite her up here, but also typing up a divorce petition right now. Thoughts?
