And as for companionship--- I don't even really mean necessarily a woman, though that would be nice...
I just have like... nobody to talk to these days in real person-- but that is a lot my own fault. I need to start thinking creatively about how I can branch out...
I always wanted to have a model airplane... gonna look into that. what a nerd, right?
but you are probably right. I need to go through this and really make the changes I need to make, rather than give just lip service to it as cat once said.
I may be needing some serious coaching from you guys this weekend.
wife and I were going to "talk" to figure out what we were gonna do (obviously this stemmed from my "got to move on with my life" line). I tried to get off the phone earlier in the day (you know, end convo first)... then she texted to say "sorry, you seemed like you didn't want to talk" then called me back-- like a gator pulled me down under the water to roll around some R talk...which led to my finally admitting I didn't understand where she went today when she called me, then said call back, then I did... and didn't hear from her for 2 hours...
then she skyped me twice (hadn't in months) to "see my face"... said she loved me. was crying. had some really good lies today by the way...that is what I'm having a hard time with... the lies.
BTW-- anyone else think this ISNT MLC by now?
I was doing really well for a while there though, trying to stay detatched, trying not to get into R talk, but she is so good at getting me to do it... when I don't want to talk-- all of a sudden she wants to talk.
anyhow, I will be looking for advice as to what I should say in the big sit down... or should I just defuse it before hand and say (she mentioned she was coming out of her cocoon soon) that I will wait for her to come out of her cocoon? something like that?
