You're slipping in your control of the one thing you can indeed control, your thoughts and frame of mind. Don't obssess over what she is doing and how right / wrong / explainable it might be.
I took me about 5 times reading these lines for it to sink in. Sometimes people saying the same thing over and over but in slightly different manners helps...this is clicking in my brain. I have not done it yet, but it is clicking. I am hoping for some progress tonight. I think more than anything I need some quiet/alone time for me. Too much pressure at work and too many reminders (at work) of her/them plus sleep deprivation.
I took a lunch break (I rarely dfo) and went and bought cologne and bought myself a treat - a peach pie - for just me, won't even share it with the kids. Going to treat myself to some fatening food I enjoy that I would never have just got out and done with W around and I want to be selfish for a change and make it all for me. I've been giving and giving and giving to W and to kids for last few months.
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11
