Maybe that's because she's said twice that she marry you until 'death' parts you. There's nothing wrong in seeing your value.
Baggage is always an issue. You mentioned she felt sexually forced in the first round. My W says she's dropped the baggage, but I think men have that skill down easier - to just leave the stress and move forward. You mentioned staying off the booze - probably a great idea. I had a manager once who said that if he touches it, he just can't stop. One good reason for having gov't involved in reducing alcohol problems... You might not have the same problem, but if it has led to problems before, it's good to avoid having any new ones you wouldn't necessarily remember.
