Do you ever have days where this whole thing boggles your mind?

Today was odd. I thought I got it, that I was moving forward toward the acceptance and it hit me that it just doesn't make sense that W doesn't want me. No logic, but a weird assurance deep down that she can't possibly NOT want me.

I don't trust that feeling, but it doesn't stop it.

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)