Okay, I am back from the MC session and I am alive. Xanax kicked in perfectly. Pretty much read exactly what I wrote, distributed the pictures. I was accused of bashing my wife and her IC agreed, no surprise there. My IC said that I was less than calm and civil. We all talked a little further about some boundries, mostly about her lying, nothing that was a big deal. My wife did not break down, she got mad but I don't think she was as mad as she usually gets. I think that she now thinks, "I am free", I think this will go to D, but who knows but I am going to stop talking about the possibility of her coming back b/c I don't think that is part of GALing and moving on. The only time there was contention is when she lied about not being able to call Sunday night and speak with our S9 in order to say goodnite. I told her to stop lying that it was a form of verbal abuse and that I will not stand for it. The IC's couldn't believe it, of course they ran to her defense. After that my IC wanted to see me separately which I agreed to. I reinforced with him my decision that the marriage was over and that no woman wants to be with a man she does not respect. I told him that today I started demanding respect from the people around me. I feel good right now and there is no emotion of loss or regret for what I said, it is time to get on with my life and forget about my W. If she comes back and changes her mind one day I will deal with it then. I have the kids, I have the house she has nothing. The only thing I have to do next is get through the sep agreement.
Thank you to everyone for the support, I hope I can return more than I have received on these boards.
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.