Mixed Signals or is this Limbo Land

[MHL]

Thanks Guys,
It will be xanax time in 30 minutes, I normally I would not take it given the low level of anxiety I am experiencing, but I want to be Mr. Cool Cucumber today.
DW, I am taking a MP3 recorder in with me, I plan to review the entire session later.......WOW just typing that made my hands start shaking. The knots are coming on strong but w/o the emotions, just nervous. I hate this. I need a vacation from all this BS. I hope I will be able to help you in your sitch tonight after I have time to reflect and let it soak in.

I can't tell everyone on these boards how much I appreciate the support. I leaned on a friend in the neighborhood for a long time almost daily, I know he grew tired of it and all my friends (I am lucky to have many) thought I was crazy. Here, I know there are people going through exactly what I am going through right now and understand why we put ourselves through this Hell. May God bless you all.