Healing my Heart part 8

[fightingirish]

Update~

H Never did cancel the trip. I had a feeling that he would have the nerve too.. although if he did he would have made it my fault.

S7 over heard me talking to him and asked if the trip was going to be cancelled and starting getting really upset.. I just told him not to worry and everything would be fine.

I intially wanted to cancel the trip, but seeing how upset S7 got, I just can't break his heart, as much as I am not liking H right now, I will set everything aside so they have a nice time.

I am looking for an IC for myself right now. I have to make some more phone calls regarding my ins. and what they will cover, but I plan on going when I get back.

Its so depressing that I have gotten to this point in my life where I wait until he leaves for work and I breathe a sigh of relief... I don't want to feel this way, but there is just no other way to feel with him. He was barking at me this morning about the kids having a limited "food" choice and that they have to start eating other things... DUH.... a little help here.. Im raising these kids alone basically and when he doesn't like something, he yells at me instead of supporting me. I was trying to get S7 to eat a good cereal and he kept on giving me excuses, and then H started yelling that its my fault he's not eating it...

UGH....

I will never do anything right in his eyes, and if I do, he certainly won't be making any nice comments to the fact.

I can't win.