Part of the WORST for a lot of us was that we feared we lost the M we were to grow old in, and the person we were to rock on the porch with. I said "was". We learned as we grew. We felt we lost some set of values learned in growing up; and it was not our choice. It was all taken. We don't know why. We were just left knowing it must be our fault, our crime, and we are now being punished. We may have even allowed someone to convince us we deserved that.
FEAR tells us it may last forever, and 'that' can become more pain than we believe we can carry. If so, speak with someone you are comfortable with spiritually or professionally. Fear cripples us and robs us of reality. Hope lightens our load and lifts our heart. Seek hope, for the important things, starting with your best life.
As I pointed out on a different thread, the very first question my C asked me was, "What are you so afraid of?" I think wrestling down this fear of change, of the unknown, of the life we pictured not turning out exactly as we had envisioned, that is the first step down the road to recovery.
It's this fear that make us gobble up every little tidbit that the MLC/WAW throws our way and keeps up from growing into a person that is capable of a mature, intimate relationship with someone else. Whomever that may be ..........
Just my $.02
Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.
