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[gutwrenching]

ALL - ok you were right, bringing something up tonight would have been a disaster. Will not bring anything up. I did call her out on the cell phone password, it wasn't the standard she said it was going to be. I said ok so what's it going to be...she wasn't really answering and I think trying to divert the subject, I didn't let it go. She finally told me what she put in today and we agreed that would be the password for both of our phones. The key is she knew I checked and knew I wasn't going to put with a not knowing as we had agreed. Her excuse was (and it was a good excuse, I got to give her credit for coming up with this one) was our standard password was difficult to type one-handed, so she claims she changed it to something easier. I tried both and had to admit she was correct.

And then I did look at the phone and saw the two calls to the tracphone. So now for future reference, I have the evidence on the phone which I have been told I am free to check. Interesting that she didn't erase those calls. Very interesting.

I am calm, have been for a bit. She is being not friendly but not cold either, just kind of there and very stressed out about getting ready, packed, dealing with the family, the funeral, etc. I have done nothing to help her pack except when she called earlier in the evening and asked me if I would put a specific shirt in the washer for her. How could I say no.

I also made nothing for dinner. Told her it was fend for yourself night or leftover night, take your pick. I'll be darned if I was going to cook dinner again tonight.

Had another thought tonight...will be odd...this will be the first time ever when on a trip like this, that when we talk, I will not (well cannot per DB and WAW principles) end the conversation with ILY. That one is going to be weird when it doesn't happen.