I don't know what works and yes I know I have to STOP pursuing H and that is exactly what I am doing, but I don't know how to stop...I just wantto know why is he doing this to me, what did I do to deserve this.
My H is 49 and I am 52, thought everything was going fine until I caught him texting this girl from work for 2 and 1/2 months then everything went down hill.
Last night he supposedly went out with his friends from work, but he has lied so much that I feel deep down in that he was with this other girl...I know I have got to stop calling him and I have got to stop answering the phone when he calls but it is really hard for me, I hate being alone...and I know I sound needy and desperate, but I just don't know how to get through this...I don't know if I miss him or the company, I don't even have any kids that live with me its just the dog...Have a job that just calls me when they need me
I just want the HURT to go away, and I just don't know how to do that, why is it so easy for him to just walk away after 18 years, why.
I do go and work out after work, but that is for about an hour and then I go home to an empty home.
I don't know what works, I have friends that call me all the time and ask if I am ok, but its not the same as someone coming to my home, or me going over there.....I always had my H, never figured that I would need someone else.
I feel like a hopeless case, and I know I am not like any of this I really need a wake up call...Do I need to get angry and hate him
