Yeah, well. I watched the boys, and talked to her briefly when she came home.
She said that she got the email, and it went without saying. And that she doesn't expect me to be her buddy, but like it when I am. She's happy that we're just being nice to each other (and then she got my email...). She says she has a lot of emotions just in general that have nothing to do with anyone else, that she's dealing with.
I asked her if she knows what she wants. She said, no, not really, she's used to having a plan but she doesn't. She's terrified that she'll never have "all this" - meaning I guess our life - again, but she doesn't want to make decisions out of fear. She said that she misses me terribly, but doesn't think our relationship was healthy. And she doesn't want to put in the effort to repair the damage, to go to therapy, to not be trusted. It'll be worse than before.
There was a little more to the coversation, but essentially, I said "so we move forward," and she said, yeah. And I left.
I wish I could say I was disappointed, but pretty much what I expected.
