I've been giving lip service, I've looked in the mirror and I am not doing what I need to do.
I have not turned the corner and taken the pressure off of me.
I am making it easy to justify all of this.
I am making it too easy.
I'll check back.
I have the best intentions but I haven't done not even close to what I need to do.
Drew a line in the sand with her this wkend and today.
Need to push thru the fear and be the man I envision and owe myself. I have always relied on someone else to make me happy. I want to be a stranger for a bit, even to myself.
Like the kids ideas of what they'd like of me to. It's more in line with my thinking.
Taking steps to work on communication.
Won't tell you all the bs, but she did acknowledge she knows I don't want a divorce, said you're right, I love you. Too which she replied here we go talking about you again.
Too funny for 20 minutes, I asked her questions about what was going on with her. Up until that moment partly felt like a normal talk, although, I can tell she is not comfortable on phone or in person with me. Too angry at me and you can tell she's not just running from me, she is unhappy about a lot.
