I am a 42year old wife that has been married to my 36 year old husband for 10 years (together for 12). We have no children together, although I have 2 grown children.

Our marriage has always been what I would call good..We had our disagreements, but we had alot of fun and spent most of our free time together. Our problems started Last year when I was laid off from my job as the company I had worked for stopped doing business in the United States. It was stressful as I am in a industry that is experiencing rapid decrease in available positions.

I noticed immediately a change in my husband. He was becoming withdrawn and told me he didn't know if he loved me. I did all the wrong things, I was mad, I yelled, I cried and pushed the issue with him constantly. I thought I was going crazy and if it wasn't for the fact that he was always home I would have sworn that he was having an affair.
I was under alot of stress as I am sure he was also. He spent alot of time in the evening across from me on the couch playing poker. I could see the website he was on when I walked by and thought he was just relaxing.

I had asked him if their was anyone else and he assured me that wasn't. I knew his user name on the poker table and googled it one day when he was at work. Imagine my surprise when up popped 10 pages of public postings between him and a ow in a different country telling each other how much they loved the other one and that they were the loves of their lifes.FYI: they have never stood in the same room.

I immediately called my husband at work and he denied it was anything other than Joke (real funny).upset He stood by this story until 2 days later when his phone went off from an e-mail and I asked to see it. It was from ow and stated"your still sexy". I had him get his work laptop and pull up his e-mail and there was all the proof. He could no longer claim this was a joke and came clean.

I told him I was leaving and he begged me to stay. He told me he would fix our marriage and that he was sorry. I stayed as I truly Love my husband.

Fast forward 7 months and he has not tried at all to fix anything.I have workedat trying to fix this alone. This evening he walked into the house packed his clothes and stated he was leaving and would never be back. He has been very distant the last 2 months and depressed. He told me he doesn't care about anybody or anything. I was totally shocked but not unaware that there is problems.

I am devastated and scared. I have a mortgage I can't pay for very long without a job and have been searching hard for a new position. The sad part is we didn't get in over our heads I made well over 100k a year for the last 10 years and we were able to get by on 1 salary. he was the sweetest, most loving husband for 9 years and I miss that person.

I want my marriage to make it, I was truly proud of our relationship prior to this and proud he was my husband.
I ordered DB and am waiting to receive it. I don't want to look weak and pitiful anymore. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.