Quick recap of the day. 1st day I had some grief wash over me since the D petition was filed. Tough morning, but I muddled through. Staying busy at work helps to a point.
My mood improved through the day. On the drive home, while I still had a little sense of "losing the M," a question popped in my head: "Why are you sad to "lose" someone who doesn't want to be with you?" And, as soon as that question arose, the last bit of self pity disappeared.
The fact is, I don't want to be with someone, and will not miss that someone, who does not think enough of me and the family to make any effort to try to make the M and intact family work. Sorry, but I respect myself too much now to put up with that. The fact my W does not think I am worth her effort speaks volumes.
