H still wants another chance. I feel SO ambivalent. I love him, I miss him, but I still feel deep hurt, I still doubt his ability to change so much, and honestly, I'm beginning to enjoy this freedom. Even though I am lonely, I get to spend my time however I want. I get to do what I want with my life. I was so willing to sacrifice those things before but am not so sure now. Can anyone relate to my situation/ How do I deal with this ambivalence? He's asked if we can start talking more. Shouldn't I be THRILLED? Why am I not?
