Mindfull, thanks for checking in. I was actually doing pretty well today and then a wave of sadness hit me tonight again. Nothing particular happened, I just felt sad about the situation in general.
So someone remind me, these MLCers really don't see the hurt they are causing?
I don't think it's necessarily that they don't see or comprehend on some level, but that they are hurting so badly thenselves, they will do anything to try and stop their own pain.
I have spent the last few days reading your thread, 53 pages is a lot. It took a while. Now I have caught up to where I started posting. It is amazing the journey we have taken. I learn a lot by following everyone else. Having a live-in also is interesting, although they are so depressed inside their tunnel.
You have made great progress, I enjoyed the part where you were afraid to post on anyone else's thread because you didn't know anything. I guess that has changed!
Thanks for your kind words and for taking the time to read through the 53 pages. That is a lot! I just posted over on my new thread which is nowhere near that long.:)
Having a live in is a completely different ball of wax and in some ways harder, though for the kids (mine are still young) it is good that they get to see their daddy at least fairly regularly these days.
I think someone finally clued me in to the fact that I could post on other threads even if I didn't feel like "knew" enough and didn't have any real advice just to show support. Really, that is what so many are looking for - just simple support for this crap we are dealing with.
The patience thing is . . . going. Frankly, there are other areas of my life I am a bit more impatient with than the MLC thing at the moment. I am looking for a new job but feel so "stuck" in that area. I am at the mercy of the job market though doing what I can. At least I have some say in that situation.:) Sort of. But, I am grateful to have a job.
It is true - you never know what you post that may just be what someone needed to hear. I was reading over in newcomers this morning and was smacked in the head by a thread over there - just what I needed to be reminded of today!
