OK I called a counselor and left a msg. to get an appointment. Obv. I need some additional help here.
Reading his track record, what I posted above, why would I still want to be with him? Of course, I know it is what my kids would like, and intact family, but on a gut level I know it is what I want, too, even if I admit logically that it doesn't make sense.
There is obv. something wrong with me!! Ugh... I let myself believe that since he hasn't pursued the D he must not want it...I am still going forward with it, but I need to stop thinking about the possibility of things changing down the road. Grr...
