Dont put yourself down hun, you are doing well! You are learning to keep the panic level minimal, and also you are learning to be independant again and know that what you are isnt dependant on what H thinks/does.. it is a struggle and dont beat yourself up that its not happening how/when/what you want it to be.
Just keep in mind that all you want is that you and little S is happy, and YES that might not include a life with H but you have to get to that decision in your own time, honestly if I won a million dollars tomorrow boy would it throw a spanner in my thinking believe me.
You cant push/pull/guide or what ever word you want to use H in any direction accepting you have no control over him is a big step, he has got to get where he is going on his time schedule as well. He is in C so he will get himself sorted out which ever way eventually.
Anyway cant work out what the time diff is between us, its 19.20 here in the uk now, will go and lurk in the alt incase you pop in!
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
