Not much to update. Some contact with H, but nothing significant. Seems to have taken a few steps back since he's returned from his trip. Found out that he has ex-ow working for him. I really do believe it's more out of some sort of charity for her than anything else. I'm confident their R is over, but there is still contact between them.
I've been thinking of taking a class. It just so happens (REALLY!) that the class is taught by someone I mentioned a few months ago - the first guy I've felt attracted to since H. We have bumped in to each other on several occasions and I feel there is some mutual attraction. As we had exchanged a few emails then (nothing too personal - businesslike, but friendly), I took the initiative to email him again and ask him about the class. He replied that he'd love to have me in the class, gave me his number, and suggested we meet over coffee to chat. He is single, aware of my situation, as he knows H from many years ago and is related to a good friend of ours, and has only recently moved back to town.
I've got butterflies over calling him - I do intend to meet him for coffee. It's a step I'm ready to take, even though it may lead to nothing. As much as I would like my H back, I have to assume that he is serious about following through with D. We are going on 4 years of S in a few months.
Have been having a great time lately - friend was visiting, lots of going out, lots of time chatting with girlfriends. Found myself still justifying my position on wanting H back to some friends - which now, seems to totally contradict my interest in this new guy. I want H back, but I'm not going to put my life on hold waiting for that to happen. I guess that's the best way I can explain it...
