WAH in MLC with PA

[DiamondGirl]

So... I haven't received any of the custody notes from him that he was so determined had to be done ASAP.. I'm trying not to read into it to much (like the possibility that he doesn't want to finalize the separation) but as per my IC suggestion, I will be putting together my criteria for the custody lingo since it has to be done. At this point he can leave and go anywhere within the country with my kids without my permission since there are no separation papers or custody docs saying otherwise. Not a great idea for someone in his state of mind to have available to him... I don't think he would but then, I didn't think he would cheat on me either..

Rough few days emotionally as there are some "firsts" that he is missing throughout this all and some that I am missing in his life...

I'm struggling with my feeling of self worth right now.. I'm not sure how to feel like I deserve better than I have been treated (though intellectually I know I do)... It's been so long since I've traveled down this road of spiritual/emotional self discovery that I think I lost the map somewhere...

Any exercises that people know of to help with this? I'm not sure how to phrase it exactly, but that feeling that a person has that lets them know inside that they are entitled to be happy and have someone love them respectfully...

My next IC isn't for a few weeks and I'm having trouble getting on the GAL wagon right now.. feeling a little like a cork on rough waters..