Guess what, you did what you were supposed to do. ...Fear of loss....Crisis. ... Don't discount your recent efforts - without them you wouldn't have the positive momentum in the direction you're going in now.
You're not out of the woods yet either, not by a long shot.
I feel Robx is very insightful. Slowly read his post again.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712