Not much going on in this neck of the woods. Went completely dark with my H and I think it is starting to get to him. He had the unannounced visit a few days ago which bothered me. Also, he has been baby stepping in his communication with me that I generally leave unanswered or wait some time to get back to him via text or email.
Last night he sent me a text that said, "Coming by at 7. I need to give you something". My heart jumped at the thought of what it could be. I figured it could only be something negative or that would upset me. I texted back "Not there. Leave upstairs." I'm not ready to face him because I just don't really know how to react towards him after I have let everything really sink in. Additionally, he sent me an email yesterday morning asking when the dogs vet appointments were after telling me he would probably be "doing something" during her recovery a few days earlier. Seemed he didn't care before, but now he wants to know all about it.
On a lighter note, yesterday was the first day in months I woke up with a new lease on life. I felt good??? Not just good, but GREAT! I'm not sure how exactly that tiny bit of healing transpired, but was relieved to feel it again. I'm pretty sure it's not just the antidepressants either!
