Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

P, thanks for making me laugh! Actually, he probably did get soap in his eye! Seriously! It makes the most sense and I'm relieved!

Thank you for taking the time to explain why you thought I should have asked him if he was okay. I still have to say I'm glad I didn't!

If he tells you he wants to D then okay, you'll handle it. Hiding from it isn't going to change his mind is it?

Sorry, but what is the point of DBing then? I didn't make up the advice of not talking about the relationship.

Yeah fear. Comes and goes, I wonder what it would be like if S was 3 or 8 or 13 and not 6 months old. If you guys get tired of me I understand but I'm not doing nothing, I am implementing distance and/or mystery. I am doing it this whole month and monitoring results.

So I have done a good job since I set this goal except for Wednesday.

P, what do you mean

Understood. But at least he has talked about it. Many WAS's (mine included) don't.

Are you trying to be comforting that "at least" my WH has talked about divorce and yours hasn't? Just clarifying!

tonight I was distant physically but not too mysterious:
I left for "class" within 10 minutes after WH arrived. He asked if I was making dinner when I got back or...? I reminded him that I had leftovers in the fridge.

(remember it doesn't really start for 2 weeks and I just lied b/c I didn't have another reason to leave)

I decided to actually drive to the place so I know where it is and I did some grocery shopping. I talked to a friend on the phone while in the store.

When I came back, it was 7:40 and WH stays until 8. WH had left the Mexican food out on the counter and told me he saved it in case I was still hungry. I was! I had grocery bags and lied and said the teacher was sick so I did some shopping.

He was all excited to show me the pictures he took of S while I was gone and stood close behind me while I looked at them. I was genuinely pleased with the photos! He also cleaned up the dinner, and asked me about my Rheumatoid Arthitis and my grandma. I didn't ask him too many q's but I did bring up a couple of topics I knew he liked.

I know the exchange of conversation was not part of my plan to be distant, but he sure seemed happy to talk to me- and while we were in the kitchen I caught a weird de ja vous vibe of old times...

Tomorrow night I make dinner. Pasta Carbonara! new dish! I will be able to avoid WH except for 20 minutes or so.

Wednesday will be easy for me to stay busy and out of the house, but he is coming with S and I to our sign language class!