Excellent thought provoking answer...No need to quote, I know what you ment - The divorce - Filing would be so easy - Done. Finito. Finished. Hmmm - Where have I seen that before?
Every single time I get to that place, a voice inside says "Wait"...One little word, one quiet whisper...I have been to the lawyer on more then one occasion...The voice speaks...I line all my ducks up in a row...The voice still speaks...I tell my MIL my plans...The voice is still speaking...I resign myself to the fact that I failed at my M (not just me however this is my life we are talking about) and the voice is still there...
My Pastor has been used time and time again for His message and I can't ignore that...I get to that place and I don't have peace with that decision...I have turmoil and guilt and heartache and I still have that little voice whispering to me...
I have the paperwork and looking at it makes me ill...I made the decision and I didn't get the calmness I was seeking...I can't do anything until I have that calmness - I don't like limbo living so I move forward with the tools I have - Basically living as if I am not married, though staying true to my vows and myself...
Honoring myself and seeking Gods' will for me...
The signs are to hard to ignore...They come at me from almost anywhere at any given time...Can I ignore them? Well of course but is that what He wants me to do? I think not...To ignore them would be to ignore Him and where would that get me? I don't want to find out.
I begin each day in prayer, I end each day in prayer - I am thankful for my situation...I just wish sometimes the signs were a little more clearer in what road He wants me to take.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
