You asked me a good question a few posts back when you said that you felt God had called you to stand and that since you had made your decision to end your M you saw signs showing you that you should not. Or something like that ... I am paraphrasing and too lazy now to do the quotey thing.
It is a really heavy question and one I have thought about many times.
The signs could be a reminder from Him. Or you could be second guessing yourself which is human and normal. Your decision could be prefectly right for you and only you and God will know that. What we say or think is really not important.What are your own thoughts on the signs?
RE: BEING CALLED TO DO ANYTHING BY GOD:
My final analysis of it is that if God calls me to do something then I have to do it. This is in general and not just related to M. I also know that if He calls me to do something , He will provide me with the tools, no matter how hard the task may be. I have to lean on Him and ask Him for the support when I feel that I absolutely cannot do it. I have to remind myself to lean not on my own understanding because I don't see or know everything. I have to give up my need to control the situation and just fully trust Him. To try to do it my way would not be to trust Him. Yes, this is the brilliant thesis I have developed after many hours of soul searching
Being human, when the road gets dark and rocky , you can ask yourself "Did He really ask me to do this? Hmmm...things don't look so great, so maybe He didn't. This is too hard, this is taking too long so He definitely couldn't have called me". And so on and so forth. The mind is a battlefield . At the end of the day I believe that if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it. And God cannot lie.
I reference myself although I am well aware that you asked the question re yourself because a relationship with God is so personal that I can only speak for what my stance is. Each of us has to know for ourselves what we have heard as He may say different things to us and at different times. We don't know what He has told another person.
